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crackheart.
*11.09.04* @ *12:46 a.m.*
"let's try to keep as much emotion out of this as possible."
somehow that stopped applying to me. while i'm thankful for it nearly every other day, i don't want to think about anything tonight.
i don't remember the last time i had tears that rolled down my cheeks in pairs and multiples. the last time i cried so hard that i couldn't blink the tears away fast enough. and the most frustrating fucking thing out of all of this is that i'm not really sure why i'm crying.
maybe i'm really tired or i'm really sad or i'm really stressed and i just want to call in tomorrow. more than just work but to everything.
i really don't want to go to bed with a crack in my heart.