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calling for a calling.
*06.28.04* @ *7:53 p.m.*
i have a theory that people live for their own passions.
i back up my theory with this.
whenever i'm enthusiastic and passionate about something, i love myself. even if said passion only lasts a few days, there's something about it that makes me feel alive.
this is where my problem is. i don't have passion right now. i don't have a drive to do anything. i have no idea what the fuck i'm going to school for because i haven't had some grand epiphany that has reached out and said, "this is what you want to do with your life."
well, i haven't had anything that has reached out and held on.
the problem with my passions is that i burn myself out on them. i love things so much and so intensely, that i eventually have to cut myself off.
i always feel i have to be a part of some grandiose movement. i always want to be everyone's favorite.
so i'm not sure what the point of this entry was, but to say that it's not too long before i drive myself insane.
also, maybe you could tell me what i want to be when i grow up.